Finished

It's all done. I finished my last commitment with Fusion yesterday. (Fusion: previously the top secret organisation I worked and studied with who were unnamed as they have a blogging policy, for understandable reasons, that says staff can't mention them by name) I'm not sure if I expected to feel any different, but mostly I still just feel tired. Something not to be helped by Lighthouse and Fiesta next week, though that's mixed because while there's a cost (every bit of energy I have) it is also one of the most amazing weeks ever and I wouldn't trade it for a months worth of sleep! Last nite I celebrated with the Fusion guys, Chinese takeout and Death to Smoochy on DVD! Awesome!

Skydiving

I'm going skydiving on August 29. The best bit is; it's for charity! A mate found this company that do charity jumps and booked us on. The idea being that you raise a minimum of 150 pounds, 100 pays for the jump and the rest goes to a charity of your choice. The charity of our choice being the NSPCC (National Society for the Prevention of Cruelty to Children) My mates friend was a staunch supporter of said charity up until their death, the anniversary of which is coming up, so it seemed fitting. So I shall be raising the funds over the next month. Anybody wanting to contribute feel free to comment or email me!

Calvin and Hobbes

T-Minus Two Weeks...

Two weeks left. That's all. And then practical freedom for the summer. Just two weeks! It's strange, I feel like I should feel something, but it kind of just feels normal. Maybe it will feel different as it gets closer. We shall see.
Think I have hit on something in my journaling today. One of my biggest fears is that I am slash have the potential to be a very boring person. And so I compensate by doing as many crazy and fun things as I can. But lately I have been getting tired and worn out and I think I probably need a break. And I have been slowing down, getting blunt. I noticed last week when I contrasted myself against a mate who was in a hyper mood and was just so sharp and quick and funny and I realised I hadn't been sharp like that for some time. And then I realised that in general I don't have the kind of fun I used to with everything, and the amount of fun I want to be having with stuff. I pulled out the water bomb slingshot after church yesterday but that was the first thing I'd done in ages that was just purely for the sake of having fun. And I love doing stuff purely for the sake of fun, it's a big part of the reason I do youth work. And I always pictured myself having fun with whatever work I was doing. When I started that was more or less what it was like, laughing and joking and doing crazy stuff at every opportunity, but now there's very little of that. And I want it back. If I get that back, I get the fun back, I get the life back, I get the energy, the enthusiasm, the joy. And I get my edge back. I get sharp again.
I'm off to sharpen the saw!

Knackered

I'm so tired it hurts. Had a week away from home that ended with the Foundations weekend away and I've not really recovered from that yet. I haven't been sleeping well, big surprise, and generally this means I tend to stay up later coz I don't want to lie awake in bed, which helps massively*. The summer is upon England, or it should be, its been raining for the last three weeks straight. However, date-wise we are into summer and all the fun is getting closer, as is my freedom to do what I want and go see Europe. I'd be a lot more excited by this prospect if I was slightly more awake. Ahh well, by the time it rocks around for real hopefully I'll have a little more energy with which to meet it!

*definite sarcasm for those who didn't catch it.